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Dilim-Lagim-Minimithi

Inaakap ng buwan ang dilim,

Inaakap ng araw ang lagim.

Sa pagpikit ng talang marikit,

Lilitaw ang batang munti

at isisigaw ng unti- unti

Ang maka-kalikasang minimithi.

hai SEM BREAK na naman......
Gusto ko na ulit pumasok ng SCHOOL..hehehe...
nakatamad sa bahay walang magawa kundi MAG-ALAGA ng BATA, MAG LUTO ng AGAHAN,TANGAHALIAN, HAPUNAN para sa mga bata,MAGLABA ng mga damit nang DOSE-DOSENANG kong kapatid bukod pa ang sa mga magulang ko at sympre NAKAKAPAGOD at NAKABAGOT araw-araw sa bahay...

nakaksuya na din mag FACEBOOK, TWITTER, TUMBLR at PLURK araw-araw na ganito..ahahaha...

Ang masama pa nito laging PIXELATED ang BULSA ko..walang kalaman laman kundi susi ng kwarto at kabinet ko..ahahha... pero okay lang kasi may PINAGKAKAABALAHAN ako ngayon...ahaha...

ang NATUTUNAN ko kay MAM TET ang MAGBASA ng MAGBASA HABANG WALANG GINAGAWA..ahahaha...pagkakatapos kong gawin ang MALA MUCHACHANg gawain nagbabasa naman ako ng LIBRO un nga lang hindi ko matapos tapos kasi every chapter Titigil na ko at ako'y nababgot pero naiintindihan ko naman ang lahat...kaharap c LIBRO at ung CELLPHONE ko na may DICTIONARY at nagsesearch ng meanings ng WORD na hindi ko maintindihan ng gayon makacope up ako sa story..ahahah


mahirap paniwalaan nagbabasa ako pero totoo talaga to nagbabasa ako..ahaha...ngayon ko lang nafeel na masarap pa lang magbasa ng libro...NGUMINGITI mag-isa, TUMATAWA na anay mong LUKA, IIYAK sa kama dahil sa story na nabasa mo at INSPIRED sa nabasa mo at ang masarap dito sa pagbabasa ay may LESSON kang NAKUKUHA un ang masarap sa lahat....


SEMBREAK na to....nakakapagod na nakakabagot na nakakaboring na nakakataba at nakakapagpahirap sa kagaya ko..ahaha..WALANG PERA...

GUSTO KO NANG PUMASOK MISS KO NA SI SOTERO!!!!
MISS KO NA BAON KO!!!!
NISS KO NA CLASS ROOM NAMIN
at sympre MISS KO ang PINAKA MAINGAY na BATCH ng MASS COMM ang ABMC 3!!!

:)

ingat kaung lahat

nakaka HIGH

bakit ang HIRAP PATAWADIN ang TAONG nag soSORRY sayo o humihingi ng SORRY sau sa mga nagawa nyang KASALANAN sayo??? maraming beses na din akong napasok sa gulo ng wala akong kinalaman at pinasok na din sa usapan para tawanan at pagdiskitahan ngunit kung mismong tunay na kaibigan mo ang gumawa nun sa tingin mo matutuwa kang gawin un sa kanya THOUGH alam nya sa sarili nya na ayaw ko ng ganung mga bagay-bagay....... sa TINGIN nyo karapat dapat bang patawadin ang isang taong |NAGPAMUKHA sa ibang tao na naging KATAWA-TAWA ka sa iba ?? at KAHIYA-HIYA sa taong NAKAPALIGID sayo dahil natatakot ka, PRANING, at MAGULO ang ISIPAN mo dahil hindi mo alam kung papaano mo sasabihin sa kanya. at ang MASAKIT pa dito...... NAGMUKHA akong KATANGA-TANGA sa nga pinagagawa nya sakin na sa kanya nama'y NAKATUTUWANG gawin... MAGALING lang syang GUMAWA ng ganung BAGAY sa IBA pero pag sya naman ang ginanun kung umasta kala mo naman HINDI NYA GINAGAWA>.... nagmukha akong TANGA sa lahat ng GINAWA nya sakin ITO na ang PINAKAMABIGAT sa lahat....dinaan nya ako sa simpleng biruan na nag UGAT ng SERYOSONG KASIRAAN ng SAMAHAN..... sa TINGIN nyo kung kayo ang nasa kalagayan ko MAPAPATWAD nyo ba ang GANITONG tao na PINA IKOT- IKOT nya ang iyong ULO sa WALANG KWENTANG bagay na NAGDULOT ng KAPAHAMAKAN sa AKING KALAGAYAN?????? _this MORNING SUCKS_ -_-

Journey to Bataan Journey to Mt.Samat

Philippines is one of the richest country when it comes to history, where Filipinos died and revolt. The Bataan Death March was called the stage of olden times where the American and Philippine soldiers caught, from the fall of Bataan was brought them by far. In this scenario, they were upset and weary body since the second world war. All without the capacity to continue their walk will rebuke and shot right away by the Japanese soldiers. Many American soldiers and Filipinos would like to give up in life, but for friendship, they remained steadfast and left each one to arrive at the appointed place and start a new peaceful life.

Here in Bataan you will feel the peace and prosperity of life, away from pollution and danger. Beautiful scenery that cannot  be paid in any amount of money. This area is full of the past and independence that you won’t  forget. On our arrival we found out that this  place is the  right way to define the word beauty and  abundance of history. JMY(Joseph Marello Youth) leaders held the activity in Mareveles Bataan last October 28-31, 2010 which were attended by 18 delegates  all over the Philippine province it was led by the priests of the OSJ (Oblates of St. Joseph) with the theme “The leaders march, the Hero within”.

October 28, 2010

On our first day in Bataan we were divided into ten groups to build camaraderie, after disseminating the group we start our first talk regarding “Finding the will of God” .  all of us is tired and no appetite to listen to the talk  because of a long exit from Batangas going to Bataan. Its quiet hard for us to listen without any rest at all. After the talk we had an activity that really challenge our determination, camaraderie, logical thinking and leadership which made us to stimulate. The only thing that we need to do in this activity is to put a fire in a  torch with the use of candle, but it was not easy for us to put fire in the torch because there are many obstruction in our way before we attain our goal, one of the hindrances in our goal is the marshals who chase to blow the candles and pour us a pale of water for us not  to accomplish our goal. In that instances we learn how to be in patience in all kind of  aspects.

October 29, 2011

The second day of living in Bataan brought us the history of the land. The land of Bataan didn’t  only become a land of heroes but a land of deep loyalty and friendship. Death march who  has killed a hundreds of soldiers, but their death is not a death in futile but death for a noble function and that is deep friendship through relationship of brotherhood between American and Filipino soldiers. They never left each other until they reach their freedom. They live not only as heroes but they live and ready to die as true friends. We have many friends in our life but for instance true friends will be seen in the darkest moments of our life but not in our everyday life living. 

After the talk about Bataan  we go to different chapels in Mareveles, Bataan to have an outreach programs, games and taught a Godly words to children. It’s a heart whelming for me that I did something good to others. Sharing my knowledge and logical thinking without any change. It is nice to see that everyone is very provocative in serving other. The leaders that has no doubt in serving others and leader whose willing to do everything for the good of the people. I do believe in this quotation that “The Leaders is always the ACE of the Follower” because in our daily lifestyle leader is the maneuver of the car they make the right moves for us and makes way for goodness and serenity of the community, as a leader we are always ready to die and sacrifice  for the safety of our community not because you wanted to be a hero but because  of  your willingness, choice and no doubt and ready to sacrifice for everyone.

October 30, 2011

At exactly 04: 30 am all the JMY Leaders have a journey to the historical Mt. Samat. at this time, we will go to the famous leader of the altar of courage which is found in Pilar, Bataan. This area is full of historical, Mt. Samat of Filipinos and American soldiers who fought with  heart and courage to stay their right of freedom. whether they caught by the Japanese soldier but their bravery will remain linear history. in this case, let the consciousness of the young leaders the courage to sacrifice himself to others. every step that we do until we reach the top of the mountain We followed the footsteps of our heroes, we walk to replenish Bataan death where many soldiers hero sacrifices life. We walked through it with no doubt and no certainty. most of us is tired of and most also have already ride in the vehicle and the rest  is immovable in a tired because we believe that our hero made to survive in this passage, we also overcome it with courage and no doubt like them and I’m very proud to say that I made it to the top without giving up.

October 31, 2011

This is the day that we will leave Bataan and unfortunately I want to stay here and live in this area. no mess, good breeze in the air that passes through my  body and away from smoky and dark air and living in a peaceful town.  living in this place is one of my goal in future because in this place I found out the  will of happiness and richness life but I cannot stay here for now, for  instance I pursue to go back here to view it and passes all the ones I made here and the history of Bataan. I Love Bataan and I  Love our journey here its unforgettable to me that I became a part of this place. Nice scenery and sites.

How to put yourself in shame

Humiliation is one of the best ways to be notice by people and best way to express your foolishness. Here are some tips for you to become a certified shameful to the community.

1.      First thing to do is wear resistant boots shoes when entering the school and bring a sprayer dryer bag for them to notice you and think that you are fool in all you do to yourself and try to wave your hands to the person you doesn’t even know and say HI.

2.     Eat Chooey Choco and paste it to your teeth and smile with confidence to your friends and try to have a picture with them. This is for you to catch up the attention of everyone in the school and be famous in the campus cause of your stupidity.

3.     Every wash day wear your best gown going to school as if it’s a prom night while wearing your fake 24 karat earrings, necklace and bracelet. Go to the center stage of the gymnasium call the attention of the boys and let them dance with you and get their numbers and assume that you are the queen of the school, there you got a perfect foolishness.

4.     Talk to your hands while walking on a corridor and ask yourself 1+1 is equal to Magellan and 2+2…equals to (point someone) let them answer for you and explain why their answer is like that and put them on fight and run after.

5.      Go to a crowded place and seized their attention, after getting their attention try to undress in front of them and simultaneously pour water on your body and dance like a macho dancer and say I am a cupid messenger you can  touch any part of my body and feel the presence of  hotness of love for free,   they can also  like, share and tag me by clicking any part of my body.

6.     Then, you can go to a five star hotel and restaurant but you bring your own food…and while eating call a waiter and ask for a glass of water and a lot of tissue, you save a lot and find a cool place to eat and rest, and after eating, you ask for an extra tissue go to the center and say “Thank you for accommodating me, I’ll be back soon.”

7.     You go to unfamiliar place, uncivilized one, most of the people are ignorant, you feel something inside you, and you cannot control it, call of nature, no one can give you specific place to release, and because the place is unfamiliar, you just drop it there, exactly where you standing, where everyone is looking…and say “What are you looking at! Just smell it! Wanna try some!”

8.     Back to school, got to school with proper uniform but wear different color of socks and shoes not just your classmates will look at you but also your teachers and then they will laugh to death at you.

9.     In the library, while everybody is very busy doing their school works, in the middle of silence break it by farting, everybody will be distracted and run for their lives as if it is a bomb!

10.  Excited for the summer outing with friends, wearing striking color outfit that even Marsians can see, because of your excitement, you run out to the van and run directly to the pool, stand to the jumping board and jump with a pose….but unfortunately there is no water in there……..everybody is looking at you, give you a round of applause and yelling “ONE MORE!!!”

These are some ways to put you in shame. But there’s a lot more. Try to do all of these and I bet you would love and enjoy doing it over and over again. Just bring it on.  Feel free to feel the ground, feel free to move around…and when you turn around…..”Its Farting Time!!!”

SILYA ELEKTRIKA

Buhay ang kinuha, buhay di ang kapalit sabi nga nila….

Sa panahon ngayon marami ng kaguluhan ang tinatamasa ng ating bayan, marami na rin ang nananakawan ng kaligayahan at kalayaang mabuhay sa ating bayan dahil sa mga taong ganid sa kapangyarihan at karangyaan. Napapanahon na nga ba na ibalik ang silyang kumikitil ng buhay sa mga taong makasalanan?

Gera sa mindanao, putukan, patayan, saksakan, barilan, at sabugan lahat ng ito ay dumadaan sa  pagdanak ng dugo, nag bubuwis ng buhay ang mga taong walang kasalanan. Ito ang isa sa pinaka mabigat at pangunahing problema na kinakaharap ng sambayanan….

Noong nakaraang taon sumikat ang hostage taking sa quirino grandstand ngayon patok na patok ang carnapping at panununog ng katawan!!! Imagine, habang tumatagal lalong lumalala ang sakit ng taong makasalanan. Dahil ba ito sa kahirapan ng buhay kaya nila nagagawa ito? O dahil ito sa kakulangan ng seguridad ng bayan  o sa kapalpakan ng ating pamahalaan.

Paano natin maririsolba ang ganitong kalagayan sa bansa…gayong pati ang kapulisan walang magawa. Mga pulis na bulag sa katotohanan. Gumagawa nga ng aksyon palya naman at walang kwenta, dumating  nga sila tapos na ang eksena, anong klaseng mga pulis meron tayo? Hindi sibilisado. Puro sila nakatunganga, kurakot,at panay ang upo wala naman ginagawa.sira na ang silya di pa nakakagagawa ng mabuti sa kapwa.saka lang gagawa ng aksyon pag nangyare na at may kamerang nakatutok sa kanila.mag papatupad ng check point sa buong bansa at  mag papahightend alert. Puro late reactions lang ang lahat ng ginagawa nila.

Sanay magising na sa katotohanan ang lahat ng mga makapangyarihan sa ating bayan, mga nakaupo sa senado, pamahalaan at kapulisan naway marinig nila ang hinaing ng bawat sangkatauhan, magising sa katotohanan, at makita ang kalagayan ng ating bayan..

  

Veracity of Judgment

Lust is one of the basic factors why gay treated in other ways, is it because they’re searching for pleasure they crave for? Discrimination comes to us because in we are living in a third estate of sexuality, homosexuality but why can’t we have respect and good treatment of the people? Is it because where different to others? Or is it because we are plague in their minds?. We are like in the world o f fairytale having a curse that no one can spell out.
“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.”

We can never judge other people unless you are God who creates us. We believe that God only created two sexuality the male and female, how about gay? are the mistaken god's creature in this world? many questions in my mind that I can't answer, questions that bothers my personality.

One of the greatest experience in my life is to live in the world of judgments. Judgments that can never hid in me. One of the veracity that I can never admit, the curse that was given  me will never spelled out unless people understand if what I am and who I am in the actuality that I belong to the pink city of the country.

When I was a child my mom taught me on how to be independent at all times, independent that mold me where I am now but one of thing that he won’t let me independent is being gay. She will stop me for everything I do specially in dancing and acting. The potential of being a gay will be seen in my personality, the way I speak and the way I move.

I am a pretender in my daily condition, every smile and every laugh is just a lie, smile that will keep my problems and sadness undisclosed that my friends and classmates will never feel that I’m in the tale of woe. I am like living in a worth zilch and feels dejected to my family they haven’t know what I feel right now. They accept me who I am  in their words and facing other people but not in their heart just full of plasticity. I am like a hobo man who is searching for a home of acceptance and home of love and proudest. I dream a happy family who will accept me a persona as a gay and proud to say that I was their son.

UNHEAL

My heart tears in the rain,

While healing the past,

 wind swells in my heart sob wounded and unrivaled

against my greatly loved person I bowed,

 my anger and hatred inward.

my heart stays closed, closed as storage room.

 No one can enter just me.

 Anyone who stab to enter in my room will kick him back.

 caress of love will swell in me.

 I neither love nor remain numb and greedy in my mind.

Still be closed and locked.

Buntong Hininga

Tipid

 Nagmula ako sa isang pamilyang puno ng pagmamahal at kasiyahan na kung saan nagbunga ng isang anak na  nagngangalang “JUNE” na hango ang pangalan sa isang Panginoon ng Romano na si Juno. Marahil isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako tinawag na “JUNE” dahil ako ay pinanganak sa buwan ng Hunyo 7, 1993. Iyun na marahil ang pinakamagandang dahilan. Dahil sa kalakihan ng aming pamilya marahil wala na silang iba pangmaisip na pangalang ibibigay sa akin kundi ang tawagin akong si “JUNE”.  Tinipid man ang aking pangalan sapat na ito para sa aking pagkakilanlan. Nagmula ako sa angkan ng “Tolentino” sa baybayin ng Bilogo, Taysan, Batangas kung saan naninirahan ang aking ama at “Alido” sa pag kadalaga ng aking ina. Ito ang mga pangalang aking namulatan simula ng ako’y isilang sa mundo ng pagkilala ng aking pagkatao. Namayani sa mundong ito at tumatak sa buong publiko ang pangalang “June Alido Tolentino.”

Salapi

Ang aking ama ay nagngangalang Nicanor Tolentino at Beatriz Alido naman ang pangalan ng aking ina. Ang kanilang pag-sasama ay nagbunga ng isang dose-dosenang problema, makukulit na bata at masasayang alaala na di mapapantayan ng kahit anong salapi o kayamanan sa mundong kanilang kinamulatan. Magkakaiba man kami ng pag-uugali at asal sa buhay isa pa din ang  pangalang aming tinataglay at pinoprotektahan. Isang pamilyang puno ng kayamanan ng pagmamahal at pag kakaisa na di mapapantayan ng kahit anong uri ng salapi.

Tsinelas

 Isang ala-alala na hindi ko malilimutan sa aking pagkabata ay ang araw-araw na paglalaro kasama ang aking mga pinsan. Mga larong aking kinasanayan nuong ako’y maliit pa, patintero na nagbigay sa akin ng malawak na pag–iisip kung paano malalagpasan ang lahat ng mga humaharang na problema sa akin buhay, luksong tinik na nagturo sa aking abutin ang aking mga pangarap sa abot nang aking makakaya, at habulan na hindi sa lahat ng oras lagi tayo ang nangunguna sa lahat ng bagay-bagay sa mundong ito. Ang aking buhay ay katulad lamang ng ating mga tsinelas, may tsinelas na pudpud na, sira-sira at lumang-luma na, sa maikling sabi hindi na kapaki-pakinabang at  wala nang buhay, sa aking paglalakbay sa pangaraw-araw na pamumuhay lagi kong nararanasan ang mapudpud at mabutasan sa buhay, ang masira sa mga tao at pabayaang anurin ng alon at mamuhay ng walang kwenta, ngunit sa kabilang dako  nito matapilok man ako na riyan muli ang bagong tsinelas para baguhin ang lahat ng mga ito. Maglalakbay muli sa agos ng buhay at magpaanod sa gulong ng kapalaran. Tatayu’t tatayo rin tayo at magsisimulang muli ng buhay. Madapa man ako o tayo sa lahat ng oras, ito ay magsisilbing gabay at aral sa ating buhay, bumagsak  man tayo ay may napulot  tayong magandang aral sa ating pagkakadapa.

Pinakulong Tubig

 Isa sa mga nakasanayan ko na sa aking pagligo ay ang paggamit ng mainit na tubig, ito ay naging mitsa sa aking kutis kung saan nalapnos ang aking binti, isang trauma na di ko malilimutan sa aking sarili na hanggang ngayon ay hindi mawala sa aking pag-iisip

ang iniwang sakit at galos sa aking binti. Ang pinakulong tubig na ito ang nag silbing

babala sa aking pang araw-araw na buhay na wag padalus-dalos sa lahat ng bagay. Maging maingat sa lahat lalong-lalo na sa taong dapat mong pagkatiwalaan. Di natin alam na baka mag dulot din ito ng malaking galos sa ating mahal sa buhay.

Alkansya

 Noong bata pa ako, ako yung tipong masayahin at napakadaldal sa klase kahit hindi naman kailangan pag-usapan ay pilit-pilit kong isinisiksik para lang ako’y mapansin. Ako yung tipong laging gustong magpatawa at umeksena sa gitna ng kaseryosohan ng aking mga kasama. Ako yung tao noon na hindi marunong mamrublema at problemahin ang iba basta ang alam ko lang ay mangulit at magpatawa sa lahat ng taong kaharap ko, di mapatali sa lahat ng bagay. Ganyan ako ka disididong magpasaya ng tao parang alkansya pag inalog mo maingay ito at walang humpay sa pag likha ng mababa, malakas, at matinis na tunog ng mga pera. Ibang- iba man ang pag-uugali ko sa lahat, iyon ay dahil yun ako at kung sino ako ito ang nagmulat at bumuo sa tunay kong pagkatao at humubog  para mapansin ng ibang tao. Pilitin ko man ang sarili kong maging tahimik at maging seryoso ay hindi ko magawa sapagkat ito na ang kinasanayan ko at kinamulatan ko, ang maging masaya sa lahat ng masaya at magpasaya ng magpasaya sa mga taong walang humpay ang dating ng problema.

Krus

 isa sa pinakamasayang responsibiladad na aking nagampanan sa buong buhay ko ay ang pagiging lingkod ng Inang Simbahan, ito’y nagpapatunay na ako’y may takot sa panginoon. Naging sakristan ako noon hanggang sa ngayon at kasalukuyang presidente ng isang organisasyong pangkabataan na naglalayong ituwid ang kanilang landas sa maling daan, kapag ako’y humawak ng isang responsibilidad sinisiguro ko sa kanila na hindi mabibigo at hindi mawawalan ng kulay ang aming organisasyson. Ang isang responsibilidad ay hindi madaling akayin sa araw-araw. Kapag ako’y nabigyan ng pagkakataon na mamuno dito ay hindi ko pinalalagpas, dahil ito na yung pagkakataon na ipakita ko sa kanila kung gaano ako ka pursigido sa posisyong ito at ka-diterminadong lider. Pagdating sa ganitong pagkakataon sinesiryoso ko ang lahat ng bagay-bagay at hakbang na aking ginagawa. Kailangan hatiin ang aking oras para maayos ko ang lahat, ang isang responsibilidad ay parang krus kailangan buo ang ating loob para harapin ang lahat. Maraming sakripisyo ang kailangan natin gawin kagaya ng panginoon at matibay na pananampalataya at lakas ng loob para sa ating obligasyon.

Doble-Kara

Noong bata pa ako inakala ng nanay ko na magiging gwapo ako at habulin ng mga babae. Oo nga naman habulin ako ng mga babae yun nga lang kaibigan turing nila sa akin lagi nila akong kasamang maglaro ng dyakston at tsaynis garter noon at doon lumabas ang tunay na ako. Noong una di ko alam kung lalake ba o babae ako. Lagi ko tong itinatanong sa sarili ko. Minsan may gusto sa lalake minsan naman sa babae. Ewan ang gulo ng pagkatao ko parang si lady gaga lang. Nagpapakagaga sa pagkatao ko. Siguro nga silahis ako o bakla di ko maintindihan. Basta ang gulo ng buhay ko pag dating sa kasarian ko. Marami ang naiinis sa akin kapag ito na ang usapan di ko daw sinasagot ng ayos lagi na lang daw akong pabiro sa tanong na ito na hindi ko naman

Masagut-sagot. Hay buhay nga naman puno ng kakutyaan sa buhay pero ayos lang kasi ito na yung pinaka mabisang paraan para ako’y makapagpasaya ng mga taong may mga problema. Basta ako ito at hindi na mababago.

Baso

Sa bawat araw na makisalamuha ka sa mga taong mahal mo, mga taong importante sa iyo, mga taong kaaway mo at sa mga taong tunay mong mga kaibigan ay sila pala ang nagiging daan sa aking buhay. Marami ang nagbibigay daan sa akin patungo sa tamang landas ng patotoo, nandiyan ang aking mga magulang, kaibigan, Propesor at kung sinu-sino pa ang syang gumagabay sa aking pagkakamali sa buhay. Ang baso na nagpapatunay bilang ako, pinapakita dito na sa bawat pagpuno natin ng tubig sa basong ito, ipinapakita lamang nito sa akin na ang mga mahahalagang tao sa akin ang pumupuno ng aking pagkatao.

Nasasaatin  kung paano natin titingnan ang baso kung kalahating puno ba ito o kalahating ubos ba ito sapagkat kung pipiliin mo ang kalahating ubos ibig sabihin lamang nito ay di buo ang pagkatao mo sapagkat hindi mo nakikita nag biyaya ng lahat sa kabila samantalang ang kalahating puno makikita mo ang lahat sa kabila ng lahat ng iyong pagsusumikap.

Kamera

 Sa bawat pagkuha ko ng mga litrato ang bawat isa ay may mahahalagang diskripsyon sa akin, kung bakit ko ito kinuhanan ng ganito at kung papaano ito sumasalamin sa aking pagkatao. Isinasaad nito kung gaano kakulay ang aking buhay sa lahat ng aspeto

ng kapalaran. Ipinapakita lamang nito na sa bawat pagpindot sa kamera ay katumbas kung ano ang isinasaad ng aking damdamin at kung ano ang gusto kong iparating sa mga taong nakakita at nakaintindi ng aking litrato. Sinasalamin ng kamera ko ang tunay na ako at kung sino ako at kung papaano ko harapin ang mga hamon ng aking buhay.

Sa bawat litrato na meron ako dama ko ang lahat ng emosyon at pagod ng lahat ng tao na kinuhanan ko. Doon mo makikita ang tunay na pagkatao ng isang tao sa pagkuha ng patago mga mukhang hindi natin makikita sa oras na kaharap tayo ng iba, mga mukhang hindi maipinta at takot ikanta ang kanilang problema, mga matang mababa ang luha kapag sila’y hindi na kaharap ng mga tao ito ay kalimitan natin hindi natin makikita sa pang araw-araw na buhay, at makikita lamang natin sa mga patago at sekretong kuha.

Darating din ang araw na si JUNE na sumasalamin sa kamera ay magkakaroon ng magandang buhay at kinabukasan na magiging daan sa tunay na katotohanan at katauhan. Mahahanap ko rin ang mga sagot sa aking mga tanong sa pagsusumikap ko sa pangaraw-araw at ang pagsubok na aking nalampasan, lalampasan at malalmpasan pa lamang ay syang huhubog sa aking pagkatao at mabuo bilang ako.

Dull Pencil

“Writing is an exploration. You start from nothing and learn as you go.”

Writing is one of the specialties of every Communication students, yet it is something that I am not inclined to, more than that, one of the skills I was not gifted with. That is one of the weaknesses that I vigorously accept and own. It is my desire to keep up with my classmates to be able to come up with a good work but I can’t, simply because of the bluntness of my head which would readily form fragments and run-on sentences, and of course, what I term as disability to use well symbols, letters, commas, subject-verb agreements, and other reading rules of grammars. I want to keep up with my classmates in writing, but then I remain a hopeful, having all the frustrations and desperation to come up with a composition that my grammar teacher would not return without all the read marks on it. I remember how my high school English teacher would comment on my work of art. How she loves using red ink on my paper and did many doodles to understand. How I would be nervous the time she comes in with no fear of how my formal theme would look bloody red. I can remember as well how Microsoft word would show bottle green marks on my composition. All the green line that shows my sentences were not grammatical correct, either it is a run-on or a fragment. But then, during these times, I told myself, “it’s okay June, life is really like that. Don’t worry, you are good in Filipino”. Such words would be soothing for me.

I always think and even tell myself that every time the class comes in “writing for print”, in every activity that we have I can’t give good piece of writing, simply because I’m not good at it, thus I’m not into it. But then, I have to, I’m enforced to do this things  since it is included in my course and syllabus that I am required to take to be able to graduate. More than that, I have to overtake this course with embarrassing moments included and acceptance of the fact that I'm weedy when it comes to this matter and consciously noting but still can’t note sentence structure and the right nouns, subject- verb agreement and the right adjectives to use. I regret why I still take courses that my brain is incapable of especially in this subject.

There is a truth in me that envy how good my classmates write. Their thoughts are nice, their writing are first-class, their composition is like the one I read in printed materials, or close to it or almost liked it. I oftentimes feel bad to myself, If I had given a chance to be a good writer my words will enlighten and encourage everyone to have a bunch of future. Admit it or not I can say that I am one of the frail in the class. There is no aptitude in me that would help creating a feature stories like what my classmates do and especially I doesn’t have the talent of thinking good ideas or topics. I can’t be like my classmates as a good writer.

When the worst moment comes like this one, sometimes I just told myself that “June you can do it, I trust in you,” believing in myself is always the best weapon for me. I’m forcing myself to be devoted in writing with all my best to survive in this matter and come up with a great one. Neither did I write so supreme, at least I did my best  to show them  all that I can also do what they can. Not only that, we all have the right to be a good writer even at least once, I just want to experience my least trim level to my classmates. I know that someday I would discover myself to be great writer. Maybe I could call myself as late bloomer as of now.

I remember the saying that life is inequitable, maybe for me, life is inequitable because I have no flair as a good writer. However, I can remember that there are things I could do better than my classmates. They covet me for that. And so, I guess life is fair after all. At least we all have talents and the Divine Master who created us, made us different from one another isolating all the talents we have. Also, this force us to work hard and be better in the talent you are not incline to. This is not to compete with others, but to compete with our own self.

 The day as I learn to love writing will be a big help for me to be on top and mark to others to realize that I am not blunt in writing. This is something I can prove to myself too. Someday, I will have a great thinking capacity of creating a good stories and coming up with great ideas as we go on in the subject. Sooner or later I will be writing for pleasure and not with pressure. I believe that the longer we study the longer we learn, I am willing to go to the process no matter how long it will take. This could help me be sharp minded in writing and in expanding my knowledge. I must focus on it and pursue hard to achieve that goal. I only have one competitor, and my that is my own self. And then, maybe, I can make it, to learn and change myself. June who despises writing today would be one of the most and honorable writer in a decade, Remember this name, June Alido Tolentino will be seen and red by my English Professors and Classmates that will make them proud and say to others that June is my former student, classmate and friend who doesn’t like writing and now standing alone engaging to be a writer.

“Art without color would lose much of its purpose.”

In  most artworks, colors is one of the most essential element of the piece, it reflects what picture is all about and what life is , for instance they often interpret black as the symbolism of grief and sadness or white as a peace and harmony. Color has been the reason for the viewers to appreciate the beauty of art, just like in a real life situation, GOD the greatest artist of all time, he had created people with different life style and different standard in life, there is the poor, average and rich. There are some people with abnormalities, confusion and normal, he also created the world with different shades of colors for us to appreciate his art of beauty and that is because GOD HAS ITS OWN PURPOSE.

“Art without color would lose much of its purpose.” As to life it will lose its essence if no harmony, harmony in the form of the bright colors as the gifts and blessings of GOD while the dark colors like the sadness and trials. These colors are what life is all about, it creates different forms and patterns which molds us to be the greatest art piece that we can be.

 This citation is very factual, just like in our everyday life every time we are in trouble; there is a purpose why this happened. It gives us the best lesson in our life that we will nurture until the last breath that we have, every mistake that we encounter, this is for us to remind that we need to learn with our mistake and that is the idea of the quotation and beauty of life. Without problems, sadness, and sacrifice we cannot feel that our life is colorful and an art piece. If you don’t encounter that kind of life, you’re living in a senseless life, no meaning at all, no art of beauty.  They are just like are teacher teaching us and letting us to go to the way of goodness and happiness after sadness, they let us understand the things that we cannot really understand; they help us to go in the right path. Life is art with color, art that emphasize the sharpness and mildness of our life on how we face the reality and harmony of life; Life that gives us the different types of moods, problems, happiness and sacrifice. Some dark colors would entail the sadness and problems we encounter, and in negative ways, light colors that remind us to be simple, humble and happy and being in the positive way.

Life without contentment, misery, and sacrifice, life is just pointless, because molding you as a person you need to face off the problems, struggles, happiness and enjoyment in life. Every problem that we have has its own purpose, purpose that we need to learn and understand. Purpose that we really need to know why this is happening to us. That is life’s art.

Haiku

Wind blows in misery
Shadow forms in a woebegone
--A woozy man

Cricket in my mind
Let the soft stick of the hand
-- smoke that never hide

HANGIN

Ang dampi ng halik mo ay nadarama ko

Humahaplos na yakap sa pagkatao ko,

Ang lamig at bango ng simoy na dulot mo

Hanging nalalanghap sa bawat paghinga ko.

SBC

The cricket in my hand

Lightened up the soft stick of mine,

The coldness in my throat 

satisfying my golden oath. 

That green thingy touches my mouth

caress my lips and swirl my tongue.

Gray are the ashes follows the wind

Going to know were I can never hid.

Black are the coffee beans 

tranquilizes my feelings

loud talk with fellas

as if no one can hear us

wet are tissues in me,

more plants, more planets Starbucks Coffee.

LIGO NA U, LAPIT NA ME...

It was July 19, 2011 all is excited to go to Cultural Center of the Philippines (CCP) to watch the artistic masterpieces of the directors of the generation, short  film is a word of art a stunning success that creates a conclusion or resolution to a problem, showcasing to see the hidden existence is what  films illustrate .

One  of the film that we’ve watch is LIGO NA U, LAPIT NA ME a film by Erik Salud and a story of Eros S. Atalia that marks in my mind because it’s quiet moronic, the film is too simple but  the screenplay is very zany it make sense to us as a teenager of the invention.  This movie won’t let you feel laugh but will let you be fanatical.


 A love, erotic Filipino love story which is easy to read and understand. LIGO NA U, LAPIT NA ME is a story of a young college student who is secretly in love to her friend jenny a rich and ordinary girl,  one of  the most beautiful in the campus that says that “friendship with benefits.” On the last year of  his  schooling, he meets Jen an open-minded senior all guys in the campus really dream to date with her, but unfortunately Intoy is the lucky guy that jen wanted to be friends with benefits. Asking his self why him not  the guys on his back. Intoy is a simple guy who reads and reads a comic books and thinking that he has no chance  to jen. Because of his being ordinary guy he totally ignores her. jenny’s best friend intoy end up as bedmates without commitments . until intoy feel that he is falling in  love already with jen and ready to say “I love you”. However, until time comes jenny told intoy that he is pregnant and he is not the father the child and at the same time Jen goes out to Intoy's life and leave the school for many years without concluding her college life.

REI

May isang tao akong nakilala na nag lakas loob na mag labas ng sama nang loob sa akin. Isang taong pinagkaitan ng tunay na katauhan ng mala dewendeng kabansutan kung saan hinahanap ang tunay na kasiyahan at kasaganahan ng kapalaran. Isang gulong ng kapalaran ang kanyang buhay na paikot-ikot sa gulong ng katikayan.

Itago na lamang natin sya sa pangalang REI. Isa syang kapansin pansing tao, mapapansin nyo sa kanyang napakasayahing mukha, isa din syang magaslaw at talakerang tao sa maikling sabi isang BAKLA. Kapansin pansin din sa kanyang sarili ang kapansanan na kanyang nararamdaman sa buhay, kapansanan na di malulunasan ng isang gamot, Isang sakit na puno ng kahihiyan, kasuklaman at panghuhusga ng mga taong walang kwenta kundi ang mabuhay sa mundo ng kamangmangan at kahusgahan, mga taong hindi marunong makiramdam sa taong nasasaktan at pinagtatawanan ika ni REI.

Umaasa si rei na sa kalagayan nyang ito ay tatangapin sya ng mga taong minamahal nya yun ang kanyang pamilya. pamilyang hindi alam ang tinatagong pagkatao ng kanilang anak. hindi na tanggap ng pamilya ang kanyang katauhan bilang isang bading sa halip ikinakahiya nila ito(kawawang bata walang puwang sa mundong kinagagalawan). sa huli sarili at sarili pa rin nya ang kanyang maasahan, pilit pilt nya pa ring bumabangon si micahel sa pag kakadapa, nabuhay sya sa mundong walang kasama, walang makahunta kundi ang damong ligaw na umaalalay sa buhay nyang wala nang kwenta. nabuhay sya na puno ng pag - asa na balang araw may makaintindi sa kanyang nararamdaman, nangarap na may maasahan at masasandalan at mahihiraman ng balikat sa oras ng pangangailangan at bubuo sa pusong durug- durog at gulagulanit na puno ng kahusgahan.

labis din akong naapektuhan sa mga sinabi ni REI sapgkat ramdam ko din ang kanyang nararanasan yun nga lang pinabayaan ko na lang lahat ng ito imbis na pakaisipin ko pa. pinabayaan ko na lamang sila dahil wala din naman mangyayare dahil yun at yun pa rin ako wala nang mag babago pa sa katauhan ko.

Maaring mababa ang tingin ng tao sa kanya ngunit bilang isang tao minarapat natin irespeto at igalang ang kanyang katauhan hindi lingid sa ating kaalaman na walng sinoman sa atin ang maaring makapanghusga sa taong may ganitong kalagayan tanging ang diyos lamang ang may karapatan na gawin ito at hindi tayo. ang sabi nga nila, higit sa lahat RESPETO ang dapat mamanyani sa ating pakikipag kapwa tao, dahil kapag may RESPETO KA sa TAO, RESPETO din ang IBABALIK SAYO...kaya mga kapatid irespeto naman natin ang kung ano ang meron sa bawat isa...wag po natin silang husgahan silay tao lamang hindi nila ginusto na maging ganun ang kanilang buhay.....matuto po natin igalang ang bawat isa at mamayani ang pag kakaisa...

SubjEcT lYf

The shutter of the CAM

That full of desire,

Keeping it bright,

High and mighty

Seeking and bracing 

The reality of subject life.

Like the lens of the CAM

Focusing on one-kind

Like a bird in the sky

Soar and aim high........