Huwebes, Setyembre 1, 2011

Veracity of Judgment

Lust is one of the basic factors why gay treated in other ways, is it because they’re searching for pleasure they crave for? Discrimination comes to us because in we are living in a third estate of sexuality, homosexuality but why can’t we have respect and good treatment of the people? Is it because where different to others? Or is it because we are plague in their minds?. We are like in the world o f fairytale having a curse that no one can spell out.
We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.
We can never judge other people unless you are God who creates us. We believe that God only created two sexuality the male and female, how about gay? are the mistaken god's creature in this world? many questions in my mind that I can't answer, questions that bothers my personality.
One of the greatest experience in my life is to live in the world of judgments. Judgments that can never hid in me. One of the veracity that I can never admit, the curse that was given  me will never spelled out unless people understand if what I am and who I am in the actuality that I belong to the pink city of the country.
When I was a child my mom taught me on how to be independent at all times, independent that mold me where I am now but one of thing that he won’t let me independent is being gay. She will stop me for everything I do specially in dancing and acting. The potential of being a gay will be seen in my personality, the way I speak and the way I move.
I am a pretender in my daily condition, every smile and every laugh is just a lie, smile that will keep my problems and sadness undisclosed that my friends and classmates will never feel that I’m in the tale of woe. I am like living in a worth zilch and feels dejected to my family they haven’t know what I feel right now. They accept me who I am  in their words and facing other people but not in their heart just full of plasticity. I am like a hobo man who is searching for a home of acceptance and home of love and proudest. I dream a happy family who will accept me a persona as a gay and proud to say that I was their son.

UNHEAL


My heart tears in the rain,
While healing the past,
 wind swells in my heart sob wounded and unrivaled
against my greatly loved person I bowed,
 my anger and hatred inward.
my heart stays closed, closed as storage room.
 No one can enter just me.
 Anyone who stab to enter in my room will kick him back.
 caress of love will swell in me.
 I neither love nor remain numb and greedy in my mind.
Still be closed and locked.